Dear past,
I have had some great and memorable moments. Moments that have shaped me into the very person I am today. But there have been very dark moments as well...Dark moments that also contributed to who I am. I recently realized that I’ve allowed these moments to keep me behind bars, in a way.
For a while I’ve walked around feeling like I’ve been chained to a heavy brick, unable to move freely, unable to run when I’m excited, and skip around when I’m happy. Instead, I find myself constantly looking back to you, my past, moving slowly and carefully forward, fearful that the dark moments may reflect themselves again in my future. I am truly not free. I yearn for this to end. I can’t keep living like this. I have decided that I will no longer allow you to have a hold over me.
No longer will I indulge myself in fear because of you. No longer will I allow my experiences to make me feel ashamed, worried, and causing me to walk with uncertainty.
Why the change, you ask? While speaking to a friend recently, I realized that the day I learn to really deal with the experiences of my past, and stop looking at it in a negative light but instead allow my experiences to make me stronger as they are intended to do, is the day that I will be free.
I know it will not be easy but I choose to walk freely, using you--my past--as stepping stones instead of being tied down by you. I understand that I may have drawbacks but I fully intend to keep pushing forward as a free person and it will get easier to do so. You can never be replaced as you are the foundation of my very existence but you will no longer be my crutch.
Your’s Truly,
Tiana
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